I dont kow if I'm just being a loser not being able to deal with defeat or what but I know that my life has been like this for the past 4 years.The past 4 years without my first ever best friend has been sucky.I've not had any friends who really knows me inside out or understands me.I'm sorry if what I'm saing is offending anyone of you.I really am but just let me be like this fr awhile.Everyone thinks I'm weird.Yeah.I'm just plain Fffff-ing weird.I'm so weird I seem like a FFFFF-ing alien.I'm so weird why not scream when you see me?

Everyone wants to know her.Everyone thinks she's the prettiest out of every other human girls in the world.She gets the best.Best of the bests.Every guy wants her.When there's prom,we all will be left on the benches while she is being surrounded by all our dates.Thats how the world revolves.Or maybe its just me with my weird perspective.I have been like this.Only when something happens.I hate dealing with blows like this.Having to see that person treat me this way.Maybe what she said was right.They are like this cause they are currently immature.Fine.I'll let this go.I'll just be what I want to.I won't be any fun.I'll just isolate myself from everything.With or without me,life for the rest is better isn't it?Who cares bout what I'm writing right now.Has it even made any difference to you?Has it even affected you?I bet so not.I bet noone even realises that this is happening.Noone even notices anything.Why is my life like this?I wish there is someone who'll just be my source of comfort(?) someone who'll just play with me.Someone who'll just be there when I need someone.Maybe there is but I want something more.Oh,shut up.