A sinister smile and a hole in my heart.


Its sub-complicated.You caught me off guard now im running and screaming.
Asking me that question,crush,you've managed to hurt me once more.H,congrats you've excelled in hurting me once more.Let me present you a certificate for excelling in"Hurt Your Crush and Crush Her Till She Dies".A miss call.Made me happy fr awhile.At least I was able to hear your voice.Remebering those memories I had with you.Called you back.No answer.Its okay.Kept my hopes high.Got a message frm you saying I got the wrong person.Ouch.Hurt me much.Telling me I got the wrong person.Telling me all these while I fell in love with a person I dont even know?Playing games again with me aren't you?Time and time again you hurt me.Time and time again I tell myself its just a joke.Time and time again I tell myself we will get through this.

Rubbing it in,I had to watch something related to that situation.Ouch.How hurtful.To rub it in,my parents had to nag at me.To rub it in,everything was crashing hard on me.At that moment I wished you were by my side.At that time,I wish you could give me a hug.At that moment,I wished you were there to say"Baby,its okay.I've got your back no matter what" but its a sad thing you don't even know my existance.All these while I wasn't a living thing.Most of the time I was dead.Shoot me in the head and tell me its just some dream.Shoot me in the head and let me forget those memories.Shoot me in the head so I'll really be dead this time round.

I wished that what I wished fr would really happen but hey bitch,its not a fairytale.Life is never like that.Should I hold onto you?Should I have these crazy fantasies?Should I just keep on loving you and not bothering whether there is another person to replace me?Should I just care bout you well being?Should I just be your guardian angel?

I'd just hope you'd do well for your exams.I'd hope you'd be able to excel well in it.I hope you'll know bout my existance.I hope you'd feel the same way as I do.I'd hope my wish would come true.