Haix.Its So fucked lahs.Gosh.Im tired ryt?Saturday and Sunday still have to wake up early.Fuck.Its like.I everyday go to school damn fucking early and on weekends I still have to wake up early?Like what the Fuck?Then,I wake up late she want to scold me.Its like.Ms Chang says that if we don't have enough sleep for the weekdays,we should like have enough sleep on Saturday and Sunday.Then,she Don't even let me sleep till kinda late and accuse me for using the phone till late night and stuffs.And if I want to use th internet cannot meh?Like.I didn't use it for one whole day and I wanna blog and stuff and its my fault?Why?Don't tell me that you treat me with much more care and concern and such.Its too bad if he doesn want to buy any shoes and I have much more then him.Its just that I'm a girl.Too bad.And stop blaming me and scolding me.Treat us equally luhs.You don't know how I feel.Try to listen to my heart and you will realise how much you've hurt me.You don't know that do you?You whacked me when he did something wrong.Why not whack him when I did something wrong?Why me?Why shout at me like that when the phone I dropped was mine and not his?Why not shout at him like that?Why are you treating me differently from how you treat him?Why isit that when I am trying to be like a girl its like you don't want me to?Why isit when I act like a boy you don't like it too?What exactly do you want me to be?Fuck.I think Im better off dead.That's the way its suppose to be.I'm not suppose to be alive.Dead is what I needed to be.I was not suppose to be born.Stop treating me like that.One day,I'll jump off that building.Not him nor anybody can help.Who know's how I feels?Noone.Call me selfish or whatever.I just want them to realise that I want their attention too.I want them to know that they have a daughter and not only a son.Baby,I know that you can't do anything else but hear me cry.If only you could come out from that place and hug me and tell me how much you loved me and such.That would be sweet.But now,its only communication through the net and cam.Because you live,I live.